Thursday, May 26, 2022

Coming back

Mom says Jan always said the key to happiness is to have no expectations. 
Does that mean stop having them or override them? I'm not sure if the inclination is stubbornness or naivete, but I have no idea how to stop.
I feel really disappointed, for big and piddly reasons, and it's not like I'm exempt from letting people down. I keep looking for someone to confide in or vent with and maybe that's the hard lesson- that person is yourself and you've got to navigate it alone. Maybe that's what was meant by the north node. That sucks. 
I saw a thing online that said if you think everyone hates you, you need to sleep, and if you hate everyone, you need to eat. Sound advice, I think. Simple things. Things like writing.