Well I finally called Topaz to wish them a Merry Christmas, even though I knew they would not be merry. I have never heard Mike sound so sad.
I have thoughts derailing all over the place.
I don't know how a person can leave such a sad mess in their wake.
I think about what I want in a guy, and I think someone who picks up after themselves means so much more than what I thought it did.
There will be something to be grateful for in this... later on.
I can't explain why I'm so messed up over this- I don't know that I really understand it. You all seem to understand it better than I do, and the space you're allowing me for hurt really awes me.
It was not a bad day- really. I did what I wanted: I slept in, I took Riley for a long walk, I worked on a puzzle, I ate yummy food, I took a movie nap. I got some awesome gifts, and talked to my family. Dad will be here on Friday, and we're going to have another mini Christmas then.
One day of work before a long weekend. Chin up, buckle down.
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