I am pretty sure I do not deserve this behavior. I have the ability to quickly make his life hell but I don't- not for him, but because that is not who I want to be. He either thinks I have no power or thinks that I won't use it, but that is not true. My kindness will continue until I feel that all kind avenues have been exhausted and I am not being treated kindly in return.
I know two things: First, you create your own karma. Second, these moments serve to remind me that this is how maddening it was most of the time, and thankfully I don't have to feel that way very often anymore. You were right, Chris. We did not belong together, even though there was and always will be a tremendous amount of love. But we agreed to be kind, and this is not kind. Find your kindness- if not for my sake, then for yours.
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